THE FREEDOM
2006 ✤ 2007
And while I don't know what's going to happen, what scares me is that it's going to be good. And that I have no control of it.
9・17・2006
Whether you call it integration or collaboration or synergy or whatever buzzword you've assigned to this phenomenon, it simply boils down to the fact that media planners need to think creatively, and creatives need to think about where their message is being conveyed.
To hearken back a few years, it refers to the marriage of message and media. The environment online is such that a message can be determined to be effective very quickly due to the accountability of the medium. Once a message is determined to work or not to work, optimization can occur and a campaign can improve in performance over time.
In traditional media you had to place more of a bet on your strategy, because it took too long for the audience to cume and to amass enough data to determine performance. In that environment the media and creative could be separate, and each would blame the other for ineffectiveness.
In today's marketplace, that is no longer the case. I know what works and what doesn't in digital media--and I can no longer point fingers.
10・25・2006
This has been a really testy weekend.. locked out of my car twice… forever to move stuff in.. something smells like either rusting iron or paint… I’m stressed, tired, on the verge of getting sick… Oh yeah. It’s raining.
I don’t know how but I need to be more patient. And tonight was a night were I felt extremely homesick. And my joy today was the thought of moving to SF next… after this 6 month lease ends.
11・06・2006
and i guess you can never get away from who you are. or you can't start your life over until you've faced who you truly are [the good, the bad, and especially the ugly]. location, people, and the cold weather will only distract you for the time being.
11・21・2006
so a short answer to your question is of course. i don't think either of us would've stayed in so long if it wasn't worth it. i think it speaks a lot that even with all of these new, crazy things going on in our lives, we were always still grounded with each other. a year ago today, i don't think i had expectations of what our relationship would become.
in fact, i might have expected us to just go on with our lives with the thought being "we'll always have HK." and now that all of our friends have grown and changed and we've all inevitably grown apart, i still feel like i know you.
you've been there for me, and i really hope that i have listened as much as i spoke, understood as much as i've wanted to be understood, and given as much as i have received. you'll always mean a lot to me and i think you know that (even through my ambiguous communication). so yes, you have been a good boyfriend.
01・08・2007
maybe i'm really realizing how hard it is to let go.
and at the end of the day, no matter how many words goes through my mind: this pretty packaged present still lies in front of me asking me to open it.
self control is so underrated.
02・06・2007
m: see josh, thats the beauty of life
m: especially of Christian life
m: humans
m: go all in all the time
m: but God always reloads the chips
m: infinite chips
m: and you think
m: "if we have infinite chips, why do we still keep playing ?"
m: cuz we dont see infinity
m: we only see the chips in front of us
m once u grow
m: and see that your chips are infinite
m: these games that we go all in on
m: get less and less significant !
m: and God becomes that much sweeter !
m: its just that
m: i think thats the best part of life
m: everything is an analogy
m: and we can see corruption everywhere
m: but we can also see God everywhere
01・20・2007
my electric bill for the past two month has been $8 and $15 respectively.
05・17・2007
You were all that I could see
The world would fade, we’d still be free
Instead our love is fading
What can I say to make it right?
Just stop while you are waiting
Just stop with all your blaming
Because I can’t go on changing
You’re taking all my hope
So take your worries from me
There’s nothing left to carry
I’ve done what I should
It’s not enough for you
I worry you’ll grow cold
I used to trust you so
Don’t you try and fake it
Making up for what is real
Just stop while you are waiting
Just stop with all your blaming
Because I can’t go on changing
You’re taking all my hope
So take your worries from me
There’s nothing left to carry
I’ve done what I should
It’s not enough for you
For you, for you
I’ve can’t change, I’m not enough for you.
PELICAN SOUP
She’s hears I’m crushed and she rushes to help
She’s full of life and attraction starts now
And while I have enough to worry about, I wish you’d bail me out.
Can she please be my secret escape?
To give my faith and all my confidence a break
and I’m weak, I’m weak, I’m weak, I know I’m making a mistake.
And so I falter again, why can’t I force a turn around?
The sound of change overwhelms, I’m numbing down
Oh, I’m falling away, Oh, where do I go?
I need another fix, she feels like home.
Her wit is darker than her hair that I trace
She’s just as quiet and intense for my taste
I can’t wait for her looks, her looks, her looks, I know I’m making a mistake.
And so I falter again, why can’t I force a turn around?
The sound of change overwhelms, I’m numbing down
Oh, I’m falling away, Oh, where do I go?
I need another fix, she feels like home.
HOW TO SET YOURSELF UP
exhausting amounts of fun. it was full of bright lights and people amazed that we could speak english.
09・06・2007
"I think your story's jive," she said
There ain't nothing wrong with me
If I use it to get me some sympathy
Some ecstasy A memory,
I want to remember me
Crazy about you
Crazy without you
Crazy over you
- afghan whigs / crazy
11・05・2007
don't forget about me in the crazy exciting times that is josh chang's life.
