THE CRUSH
2008
I don’t exist… I’m in Portland… we’ll never cross paths again. Your world is so familiar but old.
Fuck. Look at him smile. Why do you lead him on? He wants to say… You make him stay… Say no dear.
He wants all of you. This is him showing me he has the upper hand.
1・6・2008
March 20 2008
Alaska Airlines 531
Depart: San Jose, CA at 6:30 AM
Arrive: Seattle, WA at 8:40 AM
Seats: Contact operating carrier for seat assignments, T Class
March 23 2008
Alaska Airlines 2332
Depart: Portland, OR at 8:00 PM
Arrive: Seattle, WA at 8:50 PM
Seats: Contact operating carrier for seat assignments, T Class
they ask if we're together. we say we're friends.
they see through it and tell us to marry other people. make the mistake. and then go back for each other.
actually... one thing i'd like to know. and i'm asking for the truth, that's all i ever really wanted from you. you told me you weren't ready for a relationship, and i want to believe that.
3・30・2008
SCOTIABANK VANCOUVER HALF-MARATHON AND 5K
SUNDAY, JUNE 22, 2008
2:03:20
FOOT TRAFFIC FLAT HALF
FRIDAY, JULY 4, 2008
1:54:36
PINTS TO PASTA
SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 7, 2008
51:00
things josh of now could have told josh of five years ago
snowball effect
point of no return
you were in it before you knew it
never go with the flow out of convenience
there's always novelty you have to get over
it's like chess
you'll eventually be compatible with tons of people.
07・20・2008
Two down to earth guys flew down from Portland. They work with at the amazing Wieden+Kennedy. I've never been to Portland, it seems like a quaint place filled with creative, level headed movers + shakers. I look forward to my trip there!
09・01・2008
You make me want to force something between us but we know it's not right.
make me up
i know i'm not supposed to be here
we'll lay out
our questions about life, she says to let it go.
quickly
keep me close
i'll be honest i'm scared of what i know
have your way
take me as i am, i'll give you full control
carefully
make me unsteady for a night i feel like falling for you
falling for you, falling for you.
you'll see how guarded i make life
this lift comes alive
let's fall asleep tonight
i'm better than this
lie to me
and tell me that we're not empty
i'll pull back
my tendencies to pry, for once i'll let you go
honestly
make me unsteady for a night i feel like falling for you
falling for you, falling for you.
you'll see how guarded i make life
this lift comes alive,
i'll rest this quiet fight
let's fall asleep tonight
UNTITLED
we're falling apart right now
the less i say is right
i watch you throw yourself around
don't hurt yourself tonight
i'm just as good as you
and i bring out your honesty
don't lower yourself
to slow this down
because hush, i see your doubts
(you don't get it. you're riding me off early)
do
you want the best in me?
it's yours to lose
your charming with excuses
of insecurity
you kill me
when i make you
feel amazing
can you be
worth it to me?
and i wouldn't treat myself
any other way
damage is overrated
it feeds and breeds your doubts.
